The Sword of Sorrow pierced my heart but love poured in! I did not despair. I am not saying there was no pain but I did not doubt. I persevered in prayer and trusted in Jesus. Soon joy abounded and I felt like dancing. I did dance. What is different inside me? Why did I not give in to depression like in times past? Why was I not overcome with pain and sadness? How could I still have joy and thank God in the midst of such profound sorrow? I could not even speak without crying for two days after the call that my nephew was in an awful car accident and in critical condition in ICU (pictured above). I believe the answer is I truly trust in Jesus now. I have abandoned myself to God’s divine will. How did I do this? It was not I. Our Triune God changed me. Continue reading “Sword of Sorrow”
I was born and raised Mormon. Well, I was born into a Mormon family anyway. I do remember practicing the religion. My family was even “sealed in the temple.” But my parents got divorced when I was in 3rd grade and things changed. The four youngest kids soon after went to live with my dad. I imagine a man raising children alone is quite difficult. We were VERY different from other families, even the divorced ones. We went to the Mormon church once after moving in with dad and we did not feel accepted. Even though I never went back I did not stop identifying myself as Mormon.
(I believed because I was told to believe)
Soon I began to struggle with sin. I was unhappy again, big surprise. I began to want things that I knew were wrong and sinful. I started to question why many things were considered sin. I thought, “God is pretty strict.” I wondered “how am I hurting anyone with my sins?” So many questions and statement like this were running through my head. I began to believe contradicting ideas. I was living in torment, all in my head. I knew with my reason that God is right and I was wrong but I was stuck. I also began to not like my husband very much. I thought He needed to change. I thought everyone should change so I could be happy. Then Fr. Muir came to St. Rose and I saw in him something I have always longed for, Joy! He radiated pure Joy and Love. I wanted what he had.
Something extraordinary happened! I began to hear Jesus. He started answering my prayers. He started guiding me and giving me things to do. My prayers were real now and not empty. I was getting to know Jesus. Now I realize God was always there and always speaking to me but I had gotten really good at tuning him out. It’s like when I worked in Labor and Delivery, there were crying babies all the time. I learned to tune them out. I think we do this with each other too! Then God told me I needed to go to daily Mass more often. I must have gone to Mass over 40 straight days in a row after that! Twice on Wednesdays and Sundays! Soon I was so full of Love and Joy I felt I would burst. WOW!
“It is finished.” John 19:30 (and all of the New Testament) cannot be fully understood without knowledge of the Old Testament and Jewish tradition. The common Protestant interpretation is that Jesus’ work of Redemption is finished. That once Jesus died on the cross, there is nothing left for us to do to be saved. This cannot possibly be correct. Jesus conquered sin and death in His RESURRECTION. If Jesus had stayed dead then there would be NO salvation. So Jesus could NOT have been referring to His redemptive work being finished. But don’t take my word for it. St. Paul wrote in Romans 4:25 “who was handed over for our transgressions and was raised for our justification.” We are justified by His resurrection. Continue reading ““It is Finished.” John 19:30″
Some of my own photos of God’s amazing creations. Everything God made is for the purpose of evangelization.
The more I grow in my faith, and in my relationship with Jesus, the more I can’t believe how much of the bible I had gotten wrong. And I don’t think I am the only one. I attended many different “bible only” churches and received wrong teaching in scripture interpretation. It’s no wonder I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus. How can you have a relationship with someone when you don’t understand a thing they say? Or even worse, you can’t trust them because they seemingly contradict themselves again and again?
For example, Revelation 20
[ The Thousand Years ] Then I saw an angel coming down from heaven, holding in his hand the key of the bottomless pit and a great chain. And he seized the dragon, that ancient serpent, who is the Devil and Satan, and bound him for a thousand years, and threw him into the pit, and shut it and sealed it over him, that he should deceive the nations no more, till the thousand years were ended. After that he must be loosed for a little while.
I recently read about the kidnapping of Elizabeth Smart and the horror she endured that was made worse by pornography. The devil would like nothing more than for us to remain silent and do nothing. I can no longer remain silent. Pornography played a part in hurting someone I love recently. Besides the obvious victims, those in the actual pornography, I wonder how many more victims there are like Elizabeth. What can I do? I am not sure. I will not remain silent anymore, however. I think we can change the world by raising children to respect the moral laws of God. How can we do this? My good friend and mentor, Leila Miller, just wrote a book that can help. I can’t wait to order and read it. Kindle pre-orders available now. Paperback available to order Saturday August 27th. Click on the picture below.